Don't blame me, I'm morbidly obsessed with depression.  And now Vegeta is.  It's not my fault.  I promise you that.
TiTLE: Sabitsuita Machine Gun De Ima O Uchi Nukou 1/1
AUTHOR:  angela the anime whore (spacekangaroo@AOL.com)
RATiNG: I don’t know  just kinda give it a letter or something
SUMMARY: … need … help…
DiSCLAiMER:  I don’t own anything.  I guess Vegeta owns the thoughts, who knows. Akira Toriyama owns DBZ.

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    It’s back.  I promised myself I would be strong.  But I can’t fight it again.  It almost seems easier to just kill myself.  End it all.

    The urge to kill, to blindly main those around me.  It never stops, this cycle of pain and anger.  I was made like this, shaped and molded by the same hands that unfailingly destroyed everything I had, everything I was.

    It’s his fault they died, hundreds of thousands of innocents.  Slain by my hand, all for him.  Even when he was gone I strove to please him.  I was his unwilling slave, and he left me. 

    He left me alone.  To do his will, even after he had gone.  And I followed him, like the fool I am.  He betrayed me, betrayed everyone like me.  We worshipped him, and he killed us all.  There was respect, until he destroyed it all.

    One fit of rage destroyed an entire race.  He was the master, we were his flock.  He called us his stupid monkeys, afraid to admit his fear of us. 

    I watched him kill my father.  He killed him, and then everyone else who came in his way.  Until he destroyed my people, I wanted to be like him.  But not anymore.  I just want peace.

    I want to be left alone.  It all has to end.  The pain, the voices, the memories.  They haunt me, taunting my every breath.

    I can’t hide it anymore.  It’s going to stop, if I have to do it myself.

Angela

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